healing

WOWWWW,
so the most epic thing happened today. i asked for forgiveness. from the ONE MAN whom i thought would never have forgiven me. KChampaco. i have wronged him more than i have wronged anyone else. (beside mahina but she doesnt count haha) and i honestly teared up when i received his message. ive been praying that Papa would open doors to ask for forgiveness. and he as opened so many, but i was too scared to actually take the chance and walk through. and finally i told God, enough is enough. i wont backout this time. so i took a big breathe, and messaged him a LOOOONG message on myspace. haha, talked to Ivony about for a looong time. than after a few hours, he messaged back a million times longer. saying he already has and giving me words of encouragement that i have changed and i HAVE proven him wrong and that i AM a strong Christian. you have nooooo idea what that did. it softened that hard exterior i put around my heart from the resentment and bitterness i had towards myself all this time. this is a huuuuuge thing, ive wronged him sooo many times, but PAPA is sooo amazing. he did this. PAPA planned this allll along. thank you Keith, you have no idea how you have shaped me, my character, my faith in God. drawing me near to him to get through you. i love you keith! NO HOMO! hahah,

Thank you soooo much PAPA. i love you. THANK YOU for being there when i called upon you and for opening the doors even when you knew i wasnt going to follow through till now. over those many months of pain and bitterness you still proved faithful. and im sorry i fell short, but thats why you sent your son and MY best friend Jesus Christ to die on the cross for MY wrongs. Sorry i am unworthy of you, but that is why you love me, why you love this world. thank you soooo much Papa, for loving me when i felt you werent there, but like your word says, "He will never leave you nor forsake you." Deut. 31:8, you were there holding my hand this whole time, carrying me when i was weak, and holding me when i tried to run away from you. i LOVE YOU PAPA.




oh yeah, Ivony Cablay; my bestfriend, my love, my wife. thank YOU for being with me on this epic journey. Good and BAD. Thank you for helping plant my roots, and thank you for loving me when i did not love you. thank you for never leaving me. annd i KNOW we will never part. forever and ever, until the end of time and BEYOND..

Learn me HOW!

wowwwww first blog.


i wanna write and write and write, but i have no time whatsoever. so much uncertainties going on. choosing the rights and wrongs. gotta leeeearn how to manage priorities and not to mention the people in my life. my VC and church. yet alone think of everybody in my VC/check up on thtem, and keep me hanging on to my own faith.

-Papa help me. Learn me how.
+Proverbs 3:3-6