tied down

my new fav song? idkkkkk hahhh

umm not too good. i dont like being on the internet honestly because ivonys hides alot of her emotions here, in something tangible, something that will pass away. why cant she hide her emotions in something promising? something forever? like ME? or PAPA? idk its really irritating because she does everything on her own. solves her own problems without me. without papa sometimes. how am i supposed to be a good boyfriend and help her with her walk with god? help her bring things to the light? help her get rid of all the shit shes hiding from us and that she packs under the sand? sorry for swearing but this is getting to me. when will she understand that the internet is not gonna help her. she can diary journal whatever, but until someone keeps her accountable, she will never ever be released from these things that torment her. if she wonders why i hate being on the internet so much. its because shes a whole different person here then with me or on the phone. idk who im dating.